Kitni Hasrat Hai Tumse Dil Lagane Ki.... By Niketan Toshan

Kitni Hasrat Hai Tumse Dil Lagane Ki....
By
Niketan Toshan
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2012 ki bat hai jab...duniya khatam hone ki bat chal rhi thi...par mai yha  duniya khatam hone se pehele ek date karlu....thand ke din shuru ho gye the...October se thodi thodi thand padna shuru hogi...sardi ki vo  bheege bheege kohre ki rate.....Deheradu Ke pahadi rasto mai basa ek Malsi nam ke chote se shahar mai rehta hu....thand yha aise padti jisse lips pure dry aur gal gulabi ho jate...19 year ki age mai yeh thand kuch jada hi chub jati....
Mai kabhi patala tha nhi..na kabhi itna gora ki kisi ko dekhte hi muzse pyar ho....par samza na saka mai yeh bohot din tak......
.Facebook mere liye naya tha.....par logo ki fake id se aati frnd req dekh mai bhi ek id bana liya....itne bade fb par anjan ko frnd req dalna thoda ajeeb Lagta tha ...par mai wha gya....Ek id banake bus dhundne nikal pada apni ek perfect date....
Bohot mile...koi acha koi sacha koi chutiya....

Mera Bcom ka 2nd year chal rha...sham ko 7 baje ek msg ata....
Bolta ki uske pass place hai.....mai bhi socha ki chalo ki yeh thand ke thode majje liya jaye....
Mai bhi ready hoke ghar se chalke bahar nikla...thoda rasta cross kar galli se hote hue main road pohocha ...samne bus stop par khade hoke mai wait karne laga....Date anjan thi...par thand itni ki man mai toh kuch romantic khayal toh aayenge hi.....

Tabhi ek scoty par 5.6 ht..gora...50 kg wt hoga....
Vo aya....muze dekh vo pasand aya hi nhi.....mai thoda maus hoke usse dekha...
Vo pass aya bola "hello....r u Raj..??
Me- yes ....
He- chal rha????

Me- ok...

Ham gye ek kiss kiya...but bahan mar mai apne ghar gya....muze vo pasand hi nhi aya....

Isliye maine usse apna real nam Tanuj bhi nhi bataya ...par vo 2-3 bar call kiya....mai bahana mara par ek din usse call par bata diya ki What I want...

He- place hai...aa rha??
Me- nhi yar....I dont like u...
He- kyu???
Me- muze heighted person hona near 5.8.-6....man nhi karta mera tumse kuch karne ko...
He- ohhhhhhhhhh yeh bat...isliye bahana mara???
Me- ha yar...muze laga tum direct samz jaoge...but kya karu...isliye usdin kiss karte karte Eract bhi nhi hua...
He- ok....

Vo call cut kiya...par mai bhi kya karta..usse kitne din bahane marta....na muzee love hua na lust aya....phir mai usse zut bol kyu ulzata....
2-3 din bit gye....thandi hava tej ho gai.....college ki padhai aur projects mai din busy ho gyE....tabhi ek frnd req aati..jiski profile mai kuch likha nhi tha...Rahul Rathor nam se....
Mai usse chat kiya...no excheng kar usse milne gya....
Vo der rat 9 baje city ke bahar ek bridge ke niche bulaya....
Mai apna  sweater pehen...jeans showes pahan...ke andheri rat mai...bridge par lage light ke niche....khada tha...pair dukhane lage aur ek bade se tree ke niche lage chair par betha gya....

Tabhi ek Black pluser liye ek 6 ft ht ka...muh par rumal bandh jocket ki topi pehen aya....muze confirmed karne ke liye miss call deta...

Vo bike se utar apne muh se rumal nikalta...sir ki topi hatake...black jeans blue jocket ki chain nikal red tshirt dikhne lagti...ghungrake bal thode zero cut...matha lamba chouda...gora sa....clean shave...aakhe halki brown thi....

Mai usse bethe bethe dekhta rha....uski tej saso mai nak se dhuaa nikalne laga....vo thand ke lakarn uski sase tej thi...aur meri kam...mere muh se aawaj nhi nikali...
He- Hi Ram??

Vo side mai aake betha gya....

Me- Tanuj....
He- par Ram???
Me- fake
He- Rahul mera real nam hai...
Me- acha...
He- aaj thand kafi hai...

Mai thoda ruka aur usse majak mai sach bol diya...
Me- muze toh ab nhi lag rhi..itna mal hot baju mai betha hai...
He- Hahahahahahaha  tum galat soch rhe...
Me- new in town??
He- yhi 2 month pehele transfer hui..
Me- acha..
He- kitno ko date kiya yha..??? Kafi fast ho...
Me- jada nhi... ( mai thoda zut bola)
He- itne dino mai???

Mai thoda soch mai gir gya...kahi isse jo kiss wale toh nhi bheja...
Me- ha ek se casula date kiya...but i dnt like himmm
He- acha.....kyu???
Me- muze nhi acha laga  bas..koi reason nhi....

He- ok...
 Thodi der bad vo piche chair par chipak kar betha....
Mere aur uske biche 20 cm ka distance tha....
Tabhi muze laga koi piche kamar par hath se gud guli kar rha....
Mai bhi apna hath piche le gya...halke se jaha touch ho rha wha hath pohochaya....
Pakada to vo pan ka patta tha....
Mai bhi man hi man hasne laga....vo muze dekh rha tha....mai bolne mai bada bindass tha...

Me- muze laga tumhara hath hai...
 Vo hasa....
He- agar hota toh kya karte????

Mai bohot soch mai gir gya...acha laga bolu toh kahi yeh sex seekar na samze....acha nhi laga bolu  toh kahi yeh galat na samze....

He- ohhhh itna time??? Bade soch rhe...

Uski aawaj thand se betha gai thi....

Me- i knw tum itne jaldi kisi ko bhav nhi dete honge....
Vo dekhte rha....aur bola..
He- ohhhh tum to samzdar bhi ho....
Me- hmmmmm
 Kuch time bethane ke bad vo bolta ..
He- jana padega 9.30 baj rhe....
Me- kyu??
He- mess band hogi...
Me- ohhhhh.....
Mai man hi man socha ki yeh hath pakade ek kiss kar bye bole...but vo chup chap nikal gya....
May be vo sharma gya ya mai acha nhi laga....
Par 10 min bad mai bhi wha se apne ghar aya..ghar aate hi uska msg aata "Nice to meet You"
Mai itna khush ho gya ki khushi ki mare muze khana bhi nhi gya....

2-3 din tak na koi msg na koi call uska....mai w8 kar rha ki vo kare...ho sakta vo sharma rha...ulzan badha rahi thi...time nikalte ja rha....phir sham ko mai hi call kar usse milne bulaya....

Vo ha toh bol diya...par laga nhi ki milna hai....
Mai socha last time try karte....

Mai wahi bridge ke pass wale chair mai rat ke 8 baje thandi hava mai betha tha ....

Vo aya helmet pehen...nikal ke pass aake betha....

He- kaise ho??
Me- bas thik..u say..
He- good....padhai thik se ho rhi???
Me- ha...tum karte kya ho??
He- job...transfer hui hai yha...
Me- ohh phir wapas
Mai ek udas ho gya ki yane ab yeh wapas jayga...

He- 3 year ...

Mai khush ho gya...

Me- ohhhh muze laga bus yhi sal...
He- tum itna khush kyu ho rha....muze jana hai yha se....
Me- but kyu???
He- family hai....mom ekeli...
Me- ha yeh bhi hai...aur yha koi pasand aya???
He- nhi...muze jo chahiye nhi mil rha....

Mai thoda chup rha..uski zuki najar...thode gile lips dekh rha....vo niche dekha...muze dekha aur mai zat se aage dekha...

He- muze 20-23 chahiye...mature...slim...gora....just like American guy....

Meri aakhe phatti ki phatti rehe gai....
Mai niche dekh ghas mai chapal se pair nikal ghisane laga....vo rejection tha....

He- what u want???

Mai usse bol diyA " tumhare jaise personality"
Vo thoda uncomfortable ho gya.....kuch der ham dono niche dekhne lage....
Mai socha ki chal Tanuj nikalte ghar....
He- kya hua???
Me- na kuch nhi...
He- tumhare najar mai koi nhi...

Mai uske taraf dekha...fake smile face par lake bola " yes..mere 2-3 dost hai..slim smart nd handsome... Unse milwa dunga"

He- ohhh great...mai nikalta 9 baj rhe...unki pic nd details de dena...

Me- ha...aaram se jana...


Muze laga vo ek hug kar dega...par nhi kiya....mai muh latkake apne ghar pohocha...aaiyne ke samne khada hoke khud ko dekha...kash thoda patla hota...kash thoda gora hota....par man hi man socha....chalo isse koi date deke isse happy kar de....apne liye koi aur hoga better....
Mere 4 frnd the...
Raj 20/5.7/50
Abhijeet-23/5.9/60
Rajiv/23/5.8/65
Nikunj21/58/60

Vo sabko reject kar deta....mai bhi soch mai gir jata ki iski pasand aise kya hai..jo yeh smart pasand nhi aya....

Phir hi hello meet se bate kam hote hote...milna julna band ho gya....
New year lag jata....aur thand apni pure jor par thi...
Ek din super marker gya...rat ka samay tha kuch saman lena tha...
Mai rack par lage saman ko dekh rha...tabhi ek ladka side mai aya...uska muh vo side tha...ek dam highted aur full lether joket mai....

Mai usse cheak out marne laga...mai bhi usko paltane ke liye jan buj kar bath sop niche gira diya...
Vo dekhne ke liye palta....par yeh toh rahul hi tha....
Mai usse dekh khush hua...aur phir dyan aya ki usse mal hona...

He- kyu janbuj ke giraya kya???

Vo halki hasi ke sath aakho ko thoda dabake bolta...

Me- nhi nhi...

Par mai hi has deta....

He- koi date mili???mere liye...
Me- mai kal ek se date kiya...milwa du abhi???
He- ok....


Tabhi mai ek Ravi nam ke ladkeko call karta...jisse mai 2-3 din pehele hi mila tha... 23/5.9/60kg gora aur kafi mal.....vo muze dekh reject kiya...but usse mera nature acha laga tha...
mai aur rahul uska parking mai w8 karne lage...

Ravi aya....ek dam hero ban ...Rahul usse dekhte rha....
Even do mal ek sath dekh....

Me- yeh rRahul aur yeh Ravi
Rahul shakehand karta Ravi se...

Ravi- hi....

2-3 min sab shant the....

Me- are kuch bolo...
Rahul- tume aadat hai date ki...hame nhi....

Vo bat sun thoda ajib sa lagta...
Ravi- rahul kya karte ho tum??
Rahul- government job hai...

Mai thoda shock mai tha...muze kabhi yeh bat nhi bataya ki gov job hai....isse bata diya...may be handsome ladke jada trustfull hote honge...


Me- ok tum bate karo..mai jata hu....


Mai nikal aya....ghar aate mai w8 karne laga Ravi ka ki kya hua....
1din 2 din 3 din ho gye....kisi ki khabar nhi....

3 din sham ko 7 baje Ravi muze bridge par milne bulata...

Mai jake tha......
Betha tha...aur dekha toh Rahul Ravi ek bike par...vo bhi chipak ke....meri itni jali vo dekh...

Ravi- ham milne aaye...
Rahul- ha..
Me- commited ho gye???
Ravi- abhi dating chal rhi....

Rahul wha drop kar chala jata...

Mai moka dekh Ravi se puchta

Me- kaisa rha sex??
He- no sex....ham mile...dosa khaya...dinner....

Muze thoda bekar laga....as frnd muze kabhi nhi bola vo....muze jalan si hone lagi...kash mai thoda smart hota...

He- but bohot aged hai vo...i want my age guy...
Me- phir...???
He- bata dunga usse....

Tabhi vo wapas aata Rahul aur Ravi ko lejata....
Rahul ka sham ko call ata...

Me- ha bolo..
He- Ravi thoda forward laga muze...vo loyal nhi...

Muze itna ghussa aane laga...ki iske itne kyu nakhare....

Me- tume yar sab mai khot dikhati..
He- okkkk f9...

Mai cut kar deta...pata nhi chid kis bat ki thi...vo dosa khaya iski...ya mere frnd ko bura bol gya....


Par vo 2-3 call karta hi nhi...mai bhi nhi karta....
Par mera man mana nhi mai usse call laga liya....

Vo uthake bolta
He- kya hua???
Me- tume kaise pata vo loyal nhi???
He- kyu ki uske phone ka volume jada tha aur uski bate sun liya...vo date karne ka plane kar rha tha...muze class hai bol...

Me- sorryyy...
He- next time aise call cut kiya mai uthaunga nhi...
Me- thik hai....
He- eve ko chalte drive par....7 baje  .


Mai bhi ha bol redy ho gya...
Uski bike par betha....bilkul dur...
Vo bhi try nhi kiya...ham bat kar rhe...vo dhire itne bol rha tha...aur thandi hava ke chalte  muze sunai bhi nhi de rha tha....
Uske right side kandhe par muh rakha....
He- pahadi par chalte ho???
Me- ha chalo...

Jaise pahade par chale thand badha gai....

Mai usse bolA " chalo chalte"

Vo bhi right side muh kar liya..jisse uske nak ko mere lips lag gye....

He- ok...

Mai uske pet ko pakad liya...vo bhi mere hath par hath rakha diya...muze laga ki yeh Kiss ke liye rokega...but vo ruka nhi...muze ghar tak drop kar diya....
mai vo drive se kafi acha feel karne laga....ki wow koi aisa kaise ho sakta....
Na kiss na kuch....na koi gandi bat...koi itna sacha aur  simpal kaise ho sakta...

Mai uski yado mai bus pagal sa ho gya...usse dusare din ek coffee shop bulaya....
Ham piye and jane ko nikale tabhi uske frnd pass aate....aur jaise ek dusare ko jante nhi waisa vo muze dekha aur bina bole apne dosto ke sath bat karne laga....
Mai bhi apne ghar ke raste nikal aya...

Mai aya apne ghar bed par leta tha tab uska call aya...

He- mere dost aye the...

Mai bhi ek dam ghusse mai aa gya...

Me- phir ek bye nhi bole..even dekha nhi...jaise jante nhi...meri sharam aa rhi thi kya...
He- aisa nhi...
Me- acha hua mai koi kajal make up kar nhi betha tha...
He- mai aisa hi hu...
Me- ohhhh good bye

Mai call cut kar diya....muze aisa koi kare bilkul bhi pasand nhi....

5 min mai ruka thoda ego apna side mai rakha.....usse phir ek call kar diya...
Me- hi ..
He- kya hua???
Me- yar tum socho koi aisa tumhare sath karega kaisa lagega....???
He- yar phir vo hi bat....mai utna nhi sochta....mai aisa hi hu ...
Me- okkkkk thik hai....khana hua???
He- ha....i hv go bye

Vo call cut kar deta.....mai bhi usse 2 month call msg kiya hi nhi .. ....vo bhi nhi kiya...mai kyu jabardasti karu usse...

Ek din vo hi moring khud se call karta..

He- mil rhe ho aaj???
Me- kaha??kab???tume yad hu mai??? Muze laga bhul gye...
He- eve mai bridge par milte..

Mai ready hota sham ko bridge par uski rah dekhta...

Vo aya hamesha ki tarah hero ban...bus mere dil ki ghanti jor se baji...


He- kya dekh rhe??
Me- tume aur kissee......aao betho yha...


Andhere bridge par road light ke niche bridge par..mai aur vo...khula aasman...chand nhi tha bas sitare...

He- kyu call nhi msg nhi???
Me-nhi..aisa nhi...
He- yar mai aisa hi hu....isliye mere jada koi frnd nhi...
Me- tum samzte hi nhi....aage wali ki feeling ko...
He- try karta hu...but nhi tikka pata....

Mai uska hath pakad leta....
Uske pass hoke uske lips ko kiss kar deta....
Vo bhi 2 min bad pass aake kiss kiya.....

He- wow..openly kiss...
Me- hahahaha..
He- tume aadat hogi...bohot  experience hai..

Mai dekhte rha...

Me- what/???
He- muze aadat hai...mai bol deta aisa...sorry...

Mai utha ke chalne lagta....vo na rokata na aawaj deta...
Mai zat zat apne pair uthake ghar aata.....

Vo call karta..
He- kya hua???yar mai aisa hu...mere se sidha muh bat karna nhi hota...
Me- par yeh kya bol rhe...???Experience....


Mai call cut kar deta....
2-3 week bad mai hi shant ho gya....aur usse call lagake whi milne bulaya....

Mai ghusse mai betha tha...vo aya...

He- bolo
Me- tum bolo yar....
He- ek bat batau...mera bf bhi same yhi problem creat karta hai...but ab sir ke upar pani ho gya...


Mai ek dam shock mai...

Me- bf??? R u committed??
He- tha..ab just frnd....bohot problems hui..ab man nhi karta.....

Mai usse ghusse mai dekhne lagta...bf tha to muze kyu bol rha experience hai....Kiss kyu kiya....
Tabhi uske bf ka call usse ata....vo call par bolta " thoda busy hu...bad mai call karta"

Mai bus bhaga vo bat sunke.....
Vo chup chap muze dekhte rha.....
Kyu ki Mai kisi commited ko date kar rha tha....
Bhagte hue ghar aake...aake poch liya....
Mai rona chahta tha par ro na paya....
Mai uska no. Delet kar diya....

2 din bas mere dimag mai wahi bat ghumne lagi...mai na so pa rha tha kha....par man hi man socha ki chalo kisi ka toh bf hai....par vo aise kyu bola ki koi dost nhi...yeh vo...uska zut ab vo jane.....

Mai usse call laga ke milne bulaya...
Muze jana tha ki vo itna zut bola hi kyu????

Me- apan mile 1 sal ho gya...tum kabhi bataye nhi???
He- bus yar...vo relationship nhi tha...
Me- ok ok...chalo mai ab koi bf dhund lunga...apne bf se bat karwa dena....
He- ha thik hai.....

Bas yeh bol mai apne ghar aata...

Uske no. Se call ata nd uska bf muze bolta "stay away from my bf...mai nhi chahta ki hamare healthy relationship mai koi aur aaye"

Bus yeh sun mai samz gya ki vo person layak nhi....

Jo uska hi na hua vo mera kya hoga....
Isliye kuch dil ki hasrate puri na ho yhi thik hai.....
Jo hota ache ke liye hi toh hota hai
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